6pm drinking cran/app

smoked a puff of basically cached medi around 6p,m anbd did not seem so notice much if any effect

bottle of water

took a concerta and had some orange chicken and steamed rice, cran/pom

ate a couple pcz of breaad

got up at like 1pm-2pm, took neds

went to sleep probz 3am

1am 800mg ibuprophen, glass cran/app

dehydrated. half bottle of water, opening a cran/app

12am music is deeper

1130pm smoked a joint short with one other human
stoned (still motivated and energized fyi)

maybe 8pm one more hit

730pm i had 2 hamberguers from burger king

i had a dunkin donuts turkey sausage egg muffin with an extra egg
tots
some of the lemonade, some of the v8
finished off the ruby red

was feeling anxious and irritable
smoked two hits from a fishbone pipe probz around 4pm
800mg ibuprophen

let's see here, this morning i got up around 1pm and took meds and ate at 2pm, cold homemade food consisting of:
a chicken leg
seasoned rice
seasoned meatballs
i had a half bottle of water

weekend

i felled asleep i'm sure by 1 i don't remember sleeping beauty but i remember nodding off and thinking i was nodding off too much

so it's 1230am, human entered and i got completrely side tracked from my endeavour
im pretty out there in a stuttering thought flow, but i'm opting to reup on an ambien. ill drink a full glass of water this time

it's 1130pm now and i decided to stay on the tolerance break, but i can't resist giving myself an altered state of mind, so i've decided to fight through the movie sleeping beauty, on ambien. half a bottle of water

had probz a glass of ruby red

it's 7pm sunday. now i'm in iowa city again, and i'm actually craving some toke.

we went to davenport for my mom's side of the family and i finished off the orange juice. we probaly ate around 3. i noticed it was 420 when i got in the van to leave
i had about a glass of almond milk
a few pieces of roasted turkey white meat
a cauliflower and two baby carrots
a small cooked sweet potato chunk
mashed potatoes and gravy
slice of pumpkin pie with whipped cream
piece of peanut butter fudge
croisssant with butter
2 gluten free corn muffins with butter
two scoops of scalloped corn which was covered in crumbs that were sweet
one green bean and a scoop of the crispy stuff off the top of the casserole

i think i got up maybe 10am, maybe 9am, not really sure, but i ate a bunch of jerky and had more orange juice before my shower. carrie needed help so i had to eat one square of peanut butter fudge

i probably went to bed near midnight. i was brain fogged as hell by then and had no business trying to concentrate on anything. i even tried to stay awake in bed to finish farming somehting in my game, but i fell asleep within minutes

certainly i ate other things but i don't recall

i ate several deviled eggs, a couple pieces of dad's jerky, few pieces of raw cauliflower

i got some orange juice and drank maybe half a jug

basically i ate beef and vegetable soup from the church and several biscuits, some ice cream

i drank a pepsi in the morning

saturday morning i woke up ass early 530am (5hrs or less) and fucked around until 9 or 10am until i got up and took meds and ate a bowl of multigrain cheerios with rice milk. i had the gut feeling to toke before showering, but quickly forgot about it

thu thru fri

laying down around 12am

after the previous 2 slices, i wanted to eat an entire additional pizza...
ate 2 slices of bbq beef pizza from caseys
glass of ruby red

not sure how long but it had been long enough
ate 2 slices of bbq beef pizza from caseys

6pm
ate 2 slices of bbq beef pizza from caseys
glass of ruby red
took an antacid and 2 aleves. my throat was hurting the worst so far this season
i felt fat full but i was extremely tempted to eat more pizza
ate lactose free ice cream and a couple bites of frozen banana instead

ate a bowl of multigrain cheerios with rice milk real quick at like 530pm

left the city around 3pm. not having any bud yet today, i decided to go for a tolerance break and hopefully clear out enough to drop clean (after all, i did just ingest 2 dabs, which is not conducive to fast approaching drops)

got up around 11am, played in til probably 1pm
took my meds, half a bottle

went to sleep idk between 2-4am

at 130am i had an orange mango naked and a strawberry banana naked juice delivered to me

ate the last half of my white rice and beef with garlic from china wok, 2 crab rangoons

ate a white chocolate dab candy
smoked the smallest kief-topped bowl with another

ate a white chocolate dab candy on a full stomach
probably 930pm

ate white rice and beef with garlic from china wok
2 crab rangoons
drank an orange fanta and a sprite
and a bottle of water
also a fortune cookie
i was fat full. i could feel the insides of my ribs because my innards were stretching out to them

ordered chinese at 730pm

ate a leftover half of a beef burrito

somewhere in here i smoked a kiefy bowl with two humans

slept all day hot and achey got up at 430

i don't mind spending every day

went to bed all flu-y at like 11, took advil and ambien iirc

drank a sprite, about 3 bottles of water, smoked a few bowls with 3 others from a bong
all nearer the end of the night, probably around 9 roughly
during my stay at this location i became feverish again and by the time i got out into the cold to depart for the night, i was getting body aches again.

about 630 i went to a human's residence

drank a glassish of ruby red grapefruit juice
at 3 double hamburgers from bk
half a bottle of water
all around 4

i ate the last pepperoncini and drank a bottle of water
went back and smoked a bowl with one human

i got up at 7, took meds, half a bottle, showered, went to dentist
i had slept like 4hrs

god only knows what i'd do without you

ok this is literally just a post to create up some labels for my other posts for a way to somewhat organise them

i'd tried writing down what i'd consume on my ggl calender but then there is nothing you can do with the data you record

i think it'd be best to have even MORE multiple blogs to record my days
so there's h/art for art
rcarhar hcpoapop for life
heartcare for this
i think i needs a private tk one for personal records
and then a private personal one too
and then maybe an actual tk one could be sensible, but that's strictly NOT an rcarhar thing

one for the research, that i am doing freelance, at any given time, so i can easier remember what i am trying to learn - right now it's alexander the greta to the matter of britain and king arthur and medieval times - inspired by the movie maleficent which is the like sleeping beauty prequel and i discovered that perceforest was the original known source of such story, but i wonder if rumplestiltskin have anything to do wit ie

then honestly i think it could be fun / useful to have a game blog and fap blog,,, what else do i do?

all damn tuesday

ok so side note is every time i am reading this and i see cran/pom i automatically think it says porn and i get confused to what kind cran is.

i went to bed at 230am with an ambien

i ate another slice of hamburger pizza around 2, and half a bottle water

sometime i drank a bottle of water and had maybe half one of those santa peligrojo lemon juice sparkling drinks because i had wild cotton mouth from iirc 3 bowls, one with kief, inconsistent head count

i ate 3 slices of hamburger pizza from papa john's, and the pepperoncini, roundabout 10

when i was watching a show with some humans, we smoked a bowl and possiblyy another bowl between 2-3 heads

i took a shower i left about 9 and i may have smoked i don't recall atm

6pm now and i've just finished another bowl of chunky chicken noodle soup with a glass of cran/pom... i wanted to eat some cheetos, but i hadn't i think mostly because they had been unopened.

about 5pm i woke up and had red-orange diarhea. it is with fettering confidence that i say the colouring was most certainly from the jello, because there was a little blood on the tissue which hasn't been the norm in the most recent of days.

i've gotten a sleeping around 2pm

130pm and i'm eating a whole bowl of red jello but i feel ill have to find more substance soon enough

took a salt bath

nasty itching feeling in the back of my nasal passages and i'm hacking up some sticky fuckshit from the sinuses and i think my throat as well

i took my meds and 2 advil with a glass of cran/pom

when i woke up at 12pm (10hrs), i was surprised at the time, thinking it would be wayyyy earlier, but not because i was tired because i got up

so i slept pretty quickly after 2am, but not before eating the remaining two snickerdoodles and cupcake. i had more cran/pom.

it is now 1am12162014 and i have a headache still, but i'm very hungry so i'm going to smoke a hit with the bubbler and eat this chunky chicken noodle soup. this is totally lukewarm af btw
there is indeed still a soupdrip mark on my index finger
i am tempted to take another nsaid for the pain, but i'm going to stick with the bowl for now. after i eat, i'm hopeful to feel better about it (this worked ok)

i have experienced some very mild and transient nausea during the course of this sickness
some of the pain i've been feeling in my left leg and in my hip jones
is sometimes reminescent of the pain i had when i was dignosed with a bone tumour in my femur.
they had told me for way too long that it were gtrowing pains.
so as i lay here, i wonder if my struggle with bodily suffering is near that of pubescence.

the closing of Monday and the previous week in retrospect

right now i need to scrap together some memories of whatever happened to my person since Wednesday afternoon... i must start with the latest to keep my format consistent... though i hate it and want to rehaul it but ok

so at 1130pm12152014 i smoked a small bowl of dank from the bubbler that still tastes like it's got hittable resin of dab wax on the bottom of the bowl. that's good to hear for me, because i've taken an aleve and earlier an advil to sooth my persistent, flu like aches... other than that, i've for the most part been sleeping since i got here in west liberty, which was close to midnight on sunday night... but that timeframe comes later in the post. any rate, i'm looking at 24 hours of off and on shitty no sleep (well some sleep, actually mostly sleep, i just wanted to say shitty no sleep)

so right now, it's nearly tuesday.
 the backs of my thighs ache - walking up stairs is a strain
my hip joints and lower back are extremely uncomfortable. it is in fact difficult to find a relaxed position that doesn't cause me to focus on the pain in this area
my arms are a little achey, but it's really the middle of my head, behind my eyes, the base of my skull, and all up the back of my neck that are really the cause for complaint other than the lower back which is the worst part because i can't forget / avoid it.
my throat feels irritated, my left lymph node feels large and hard, and i've been having a mild nosedrip.

i got burned by the fucking soupdrip, and i have a red line where it trickled down my finger. it[s too hot so i'm not eating it yet on this calendar date. i[m not too upset about it though, i'm actually really looking forward to eating it

i have drank a couple glasses today of cran/pom, and a glass of liquid jello (orange i think)
 i had like 3 snickerdoodle cookies

it might be worth noting that i didny have my prozac until about 5 today when i was able to get it at the pharmaxct.

and when it was about 2pm today, i had most of a chicken patty sandwich, with ketchup and mayo on bread with pepeperjack cheese, after i woke up and took an epsom bath. there were two sandwiches prepared and i'd intended to eat both until i couldn't finish the first. i slept around 330 i assume

at that time after the bath i was starting to worry that i'd come doown with the flu, because a human i associate with often has been infected by it. i do however remember telling multiple people i still planned on returning to iowa city on this day (i fell asleep instead, feeling much worse kater on.

so then, again, last night i got here about midnight, and i haad smoked 2 medical bowls on a spoonpiece between 2 other people before i left (1130pm).

at that time i had probably three or four slices of cold pizza which i think was papa john's, and it was taco and then some other garlic cheese type. i drank a couple galsses of water and somewhere in there i ate probably 3 angel food cupcakes and an apple

ok though, so this was on sunday, so here's how sunday morning went:
i went to bed after taking my morning meds, don't know what time it was either way
i drank two galssses throughaout the day
i was waken up in the cell at what i assume was 8am, i'm sure the paperwork will say
i probably got to the cell around 3-4am, immediately sleeping
while i was in booking, i ate the peppermint dab candy that was in my jacket pocket the whole time
i left the bar downtown around 2-3 and got in the car with one other human. i forgot to turn on my headlights, which i have gotten a verbal warning for on this car in the past, so i probably should have known, but fuck i got pulled over
point is, i didn't behave in an erratic or destructive way, i had just made a STUPID, SMALL mistake which really doesn't matter to the officers because i blew a .194 if i recall
at the blue moose, i had several mixed drinks with rum and pineapple juice and lemonade. obviously i lost count, but i picked up my jacket from the previous night and it still had my piece of dab candy in the pocket. probably nobody really knows what it is by looking at it

at a human's house probably near 1130pm12132014, i drank about two glasses of pinot noir
i also smoked weed with one other human, using the magnetic bowl
i believe this was when i finally ate my slice of wildberry pie from perkins

it was a long and fucked up night and in the morning/afternoon i agreed to eat in mcdonalds, which is weird
but i ordered m y usual, big mac and 4pz nugz with honey
before that i woke up in bed wit the two humans and smoked weed with one
this timeframe does not totally make sense

because on friday night i went to an afterparty and drank fireball and eventually i insufflated  what i was informed was molly (half line)
i smoked with many humans at the place
at the end of the night i was needed to assist a sick human

i went to the house with the humans and one got cut. one disappeared.

and i did the wine and rum and magnet again pregame
and before that i had to complete an emergency service for another dj before the show
this was around 8-9pm and i got smoked up on  a joint
directly before this, i'd eaten a bean burrito from taco johns and picked out the white onions, because holy shit. i ate the tots from there with hot salsa as well and drank up to two glasses of water.
im having trouble remembering it all during the day on friday
it was like i was at the office and then i wasn't anywhere near and then i was there again in a matter of 4 hours

i headed to the office at about 330pm

really i couldn't tell other than from looking at conversations i held
230pm i got up and took a human to get food and to visit another human. i did not eat or visit however, as i was trying to go get my pie from earlier. i didn't get it yet and sat in my car to wait for over half an hour before giving up for the time being

certainly it was nearly 6am befor i got to bed however, and slept approximately 8hrs

after perkins i had to have gone and slept... ok i watched a movie briefly with the humans i was eating with and they fell asleep so i left to do the same

we had  perkins because we discovered village inn was closed around 1-2am
so perkins was thursday nighti had smoked a little bit with like five humans
and at perkins i'd had some fried pickles, i think banana multigrain pancakes with various sauces, some eggs and hotsauce, and a glass of grapefruit juice
the ticket said 3am
i must be lonely

i'd picked up c notebook and got it to function again, for one of the local djs and stopped by their house that night, we watched some movie

if i recall, i had slept on wednesday on into thursaday evening... maybe i got up in the afternoon because i remember sleeping at the office anf i think t was on this day

i can't really speak for what happened wednesday night, it must be when we had tacos
ill come back to it, yo
yes, 9pm i'd eaten some soft shell beef burritos and had a nice helping of black beans which gave me farts for quite some time awhile after that

so i can't remember what i had other than what i photographed at htis juncture
i had been eating these stupid butter mints for a few days and i think this is when i finished off the package
i got 2 red bulls around 6pm and ate a brocolli soup cup with saltine crackers that a human brought and gifted me from their meal.
i really feel as though i might have eaten something else just beforehand, which could likely have been a pita pit pita

wed 12.10.2014

01pm i'm going to the store to poop and pick up a redbull or 2 or 3

i smoked around 1130am and drank a half bottle of water.

i laid down from about 1015am to 1045am because i felt i needed energy and i was fantasizing about drinking red bull and even asked a human to bring me some but it was out of their power. after the non-nap, i felt more energized

i reheated and finished up the pot pie the other human brought me the other night.

so i got up around 7am and showered, went to the office, smoking a small bowl and drinking a bottle of water. took meds

i got up at like 530 or 06am (5hrs?) today and i had forgotten my phone chargers at the office, so i checked to see if anything was still on because i am using them for alarm clocks. one was dead, but the other was still low. i started playing my game on the low phone and thinking of getting up for the day. the phone died.

so this was tuesday

i left and took an ambien once i got settled down, and drank a bottle of water. "will i remember all this?" i thought to myself before slipping easily asleep around 12am

i then exited the premises and entered another. i drank two bottles of water here. multiple different humans at the end of my stay in this location shared four heads on two bowls sometime before 11pm.

then everybody left and then i left and around what 7pm i stopped to visit some different humans and smoked 2 bowls, one regular and one topped with kief, between 4 ppl and 3 ppl respectively, but not in that order. drank a bottle of water.

sometime in here like 5pm maybe i took a Provigil (200mg Modafinil) which is a wakefulness promoting (eugeroic) agent. drank a bottle of water. finished off the cran/apple.

then at 3pm or so i went to dnd and ordered a turkey sausage muffin with an extra egg and tots HOLY SHIT

so then i shared a kief topped bowl with a bunch of humans and everybody must get stoned

so this is christmas nah just kidding so i got up that day and according to a hangout message i was pooping and getting ready to leave at 01pm12092014 so i slept maybe 12hrs

end of Sunday into monday

ahhh... i smoked some more and drank some water, then went to bed potentially up to two hours before 2am

i acquired a jug of mango juice and chugged that

i drank like two swallows of somebody's flat dr pepper, gave up and drank a glass of cran/apple juice

1pm i ordered 3 dbl hamburgers at bk and they gave me a dbl hamburger, dbl cheeseburger, and a single cheeseburger... i'm also drinking a bottle of water and smoking a small (new) bowl.

I got up at like 11 so I literally only slept like 8 hours
Falling asleep I had (barely) convinced myself I didn't need pain meds for my headache, but I found that it was worse in the morning an took 2 Advil (400mg ibuprofen) with the rest of my meds.

OK so last night I ate the remaining 4 slices of pizza cold and I smoked probably 4 bowls topped with kief between for humans. I had like 2 peanut butter and rtieces pieces cookies at the end of the night and a bunch of tater tots throughout the night and then a whole grain bagel after I left and I went to bed near 230 or 3am Monday after drinking a bottle of water...

the previous day is split up btw

I had a can of pepsi at 530 or 6 and now I'm working on my bottle of water at 7:

about 6pm I shared with one other human a joint almost identical to the last one except it was moderately shorter, the filter was longer, and it had a scoop of kief sprinkled in it.
last photo for scale:

12pm12072014:
I am baking the exact same pizza right now except with shredded cheddar added instead of mozz... ate 3 peices
bout to have some baby carrots while i wait... probz like 10 or 12
drinking grape/cran

I had slept from about 11pm12062014 to 11am12072014 (12hrs)

• I meditated in chauvasana and makrasana for probably 15-20 min because I felt I had lost my tiredness
• I woke up around 5am fully alert and played my game for however long i was able to farm for the event drops, then promptly fell back asleep
• when i woke up i didn't get up for about an hour, but i was playing my game again
• that's Summoner's War: Sky Arena, playing on Android phones

I of course took my medicine.

s! a! t u r! d a y! a!

Yesterday I ate at 8pm:

1. 2 eggs, microwaved, scrambled with a bunch of shredded cheddar
2. a dinner roll
3. 2 glasses of grape cranberry juice

And at 6pm:

1. 1 slice of leftover pizza, cold
2. about 3 florets of cauliflower
3. 3 grapes
4. 2 glasses of grape cranberry juice
5. half a glass of water

Then I bathed in a hot epsom salt bath  around 5.

I shit before the bath, and by the time I was finished, I had to dry off urgently to shit again with diarrhea.

Shit.

At 430pm, I smoked a bowl from a bubbler, with likely traces of dab wax resin

post #2 (wooooooohooo!)

it is now 330pm and i am feeling slightly hungry still, so i'm eating:

1. 1/2 bottle water
2. (some) lactose free vanilla ice cream
3. 1/2 a banana

i then had my meds and ate breakfast around 01pm:

1. 1/2 bottle water
2. 2 slices pizza leftover from last night
3. 2 small dinner rolls
4. a moderate helping of mashed potatoes

i got up this afternoon after about 12hrs of sleep and promptly completed a 40m yoga workout

Why to do dis?

basically, I am planning on recording my sleep cycles and everything that i eat, drink, or inhale.

because
i get sick of doing shit and (want to) quit, even if it is strictly a task i chose for personal leisure
"this is stupid" or "fuck this" runs in my head much in the same way intrusive thoughts tend to loop
i feel the need to sleep rather than complete the task, or that the task drains my energy abnormally
i sleep for 2 - 3 days and when i wake up i feel like i have no energy, which is why i initially slept through the 2nd or 3rd day - i wake up briefly and feel fatigued or mentally powerless
sometimes i cannot internally justify wakefulness, even if to take my medications on schedule
or ease my own increasing hunger
to relieve myself is sometimes the only thing that gets me out of bed, but i often return to bed and even if i don't intend to sleep, it seems inevitable that i will
during the day sometimes i feel the need to stop and go to sleep; i fantasize about finding a way to sleep while i'm trying to perform tasks, and this seems to occur indiscriminately and sporadically

i am aware of four things that commonly contribute to similar symptoms:

1. major depressive disorder
2. antidepressants (prozac)
3. blood pressure medications (propranolol)
4. bupropion withdrawal (my dosage may be inappropriate)

last night (friday night), i estimate having slept from 1230am12062014 to 1230pm12062014 (12hrs)

directly before bed friday, around 1200am12062014, i had eaten:

• three pieces of (frozen) pizza with hamburger
• shredded mozzarella and green yellow and red peppers (added, baked)
• a partial banana
• about two raw florets of broccoli, sans stems
• 1-2 servings of lactose free vanilla ice cream
• about a glass of cranberry/pomegranate juice

• about 1130pm12052014, i had smoked a modest joint to myself

i had gotten up from bed at about 11pm12052014 and taken my medication:

1. 10mg Propranolol
2. 40mg Prozac
3. 150mg Budeprion XL

which should have been taken about 12hrs prior, but i was sleeping at the time

i slept from about late thursday night 03am12052014 (44hrs)